Judgements. We’ve felt them. We’ve dealt them. We’ve all been judged at some point in our lives. But we’re also guilty of judging others too, well, at least I know I am. You know what I mean. Those moments where you see someone and your brain instantly makes a snap decision about them. Sometimes we…
Life. I don’t want it. Not like this. It feels like some kind of eye-roll moment, here we go again, she’s moaning. Like a stuck record you can’t switch off. I know. But sometimes your day is just awful, and being brave isn’t what you need. I started a new job recently, and I’m still…
Good Days. What are they? What do they look like? People see you smiling and tell you how well you’re doing. They assume you’re having a good day. They’re usually wrong. Over the last few years, I’ve realised that we all measure our days differently. I used to think a good day was one where…
Loneliness. I’m drowning in it. What do we actually mean when we say we’re lonely? Is it about the number of people in the room? The number of people you’ve spoken to that day? Or maybe how many people make up your support network? So many people try to reassure me by saying I’m not…
3 years. 3 whole years today since I woke up and said goodbye to life as I knew it.No more half marathon training. No more hikes. No more spontaneous adventure trips. Just…no more. I bet you’re expecting this to be a depressing post about all the difficulties. Well… The first 12 months, I lived in…
Goodbyes. How do you say goodbye to someone you love? What even is goodbye? What does it actually mean, really? Not the kind of goodbye where you’ll see them next week. Not even the kind where you’ll see them again.Not ever. One of the many things I’m still trying to unpack is the loss of…
My mind is boggled. Completely. It’s a jumbled-up mess, and I don’t know where to start – or even how to start. It feels like a lifetime since I last wrote anything. Not because I haven’t tried, and not because I’ve had nothing to say. If anything, it’s because there’s been too much. Too much…
How do you tell people you want to give up? It’s been a while since I last wrote a blog – six months, to be exact. I avoided it because facing everything felt like too much. Of course, I didn’t actually admit to anyone that I couldn’t handle it; instead, I just avoided processing it…
Two years. Two whole years of this battle. I wish I could say things have improved, even just a little. But I can’t. I’m not better. In fact, it feels like I’m trapped on a rollercoaster that only ever spirals downward. When does the pain stop? Does it ever? It’s been a while since I…
This week, I cried a lot. Maybe not the cheeriest way to open a post, but it’s true. Sometimes, I try to power through everything on my own – even if I’m carrying an impossibly heavy load with too little strength to manage it. Not the best combination for sure. This week, that looked like…